☆ End of 2018 life update ☆
I decided to write an end of year blog post because this year has been an amazing and messy adventure. (Warning: this WILL get very honest, cheesy and a lil bit preachy)
I started the year at a new school in a completely new town (one with 800 year 11 & 12 students as opposed to a 300 student years 7-12 high school.)
Terrifying. But as the year went on, I realised it was the best decision I ever made. Found some of the best people I’ve ever met and had more fun than I had in the old town in nearly 15 years.
This school also came with a GREAT drama/music program that opened my eyes to things I never thought I’d give a second look; I started getting into musical theatre. Say that to me a year ago and I would’ve laughed. This brought me to auditioning in my favourite musical, Grease. I got the part of Sandy and that was kinda crazy.
This, plus sooo much schoolwork & part time work took up the majority of my time.
You may have noticed I’ve been really quiet on social media in the past few months. Yes, I’ve been busy, but I’ve done a lot of thinking too.
Earlier on in the year, as many of you know, I had surgery on my wrist. As a musician this was really not fun, I couldn’t play any instruments AT ALL for 3 months and couldn’t play more than a couple songs for another 2 or 3 months. This took a toll on me physically and mentally; I felt hopeless and questioned my career in music for a while.
Honestly, there were days I considered quitting music altogether. Simple, seemingly harmless times like when I couldn’t seem to write a single lyric, or I couldn’t play a chord that used to be extremely easy to me because my wrist still hasn’t recovered completely (I’m looking at you f chord). Or the more crappy occasions, like having panic attacks backstage at every gig for no apparent reason or not really having the motivation to prepare for said gigs.
This all contributed to a really intense year of my life. There were quite a few setbacks in my personal life that I won’t go into but did make everything a bit too much at times. That being said, there were some really really fun times that made those miserable times worth it. Also, got some good songs out of life that I’ll be sharing with you all soon enough.
I’ve paid lots of attention to the negatives writing this but the truth is, I’m happier than I’ve ever been this year. There were definitely rough patches but I’m in a really good place now and I’m happy with where I am.
Just some positives:
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas (or anything you celebrate!) and have a very very happy new year. Try focusing on the positives and not fixate on things that make you unhappy.
Anyway, I’m done with the preachy stuff.
Thank you for all your support this past year.
Much love to all,
Matilda Rose xx